I am facing so many stress-filled situation nowadays, that I don't know whether I am reacting to things correctly anymore. I laugh at sad things, I cry at the slightest provocations, and I get angry a lot. I have been trying to put a lid on these out of control emotions but as usual when there's an overload inside it tends to seep out at the most inappropriate moments. I have been saying things I shouldn't and I have scolded my little brother more than he deserve. I don't know what to do anymore. I usually take time outs to get all this under control, but now I can't even afford to take time out for sleep. I haven't been able to write anything for months, so many ideas inside my head but couldn't find the time. God I need a BREAK.

Well the only way I am coping nowadays is just to look at things as sarcastically and comically as possible. Others might think my perception is sick, or weird or just plain screwy, but it is the only way I could make sense of my world at this moment. My birthday was this month, and I just turn 29, but what bothers me is that it still feels like I am still 19. there has been no significant changes in my life, and I forsee no significant changes in many years to come, I'll be stuck in the same rut FOREVER.

Better stop before I rant too long and say things I don't intend to share with any one ever.