The other day we watched our students perform their play. Some of the groups show great effort and they were entertaining. But when it came to the group I have taken over coz their lecturer has fractured her knees, they were horrible. I had a talk with them afterwards, and they begged to do over, I didn't have the heart to say no, but I did not promise them anything, just told them to make it worth my while. I thought that was it, but the my friend and colleague got really upset thinking that I have put her in a difficult position because she has a group that is unprepared as well and she don't intend to let them do over, and now she said I have gone against the standard. I listened to her rant, and then I told her look, this is the kids' mark we are talking about and it is important for them to show me that they could do better and finally I did not promise them anything other than looking in their do-over, therefore new marks was not promise unless it was something spectacular which I doubt, anyway, that calm her down. I know she is a bit strict about this thing and tend to look at what others are doing in terms on how it would affect her decision with her students, but for me as much as we are sharing subjects, we are still autonomus in the decision we have with our students, anyway she herself has made a decision that would go against the decision I have made for my student. A student of hers is not coming to the play, after a long talk with her students she decide it's okay and just tell the student to tell the others that she'll be having her marks deducted, but in actuality no. My student is not coming as well, but I told her marks will be deducted. So what I can deduced is that it's ok to differ as long as you appear not to do so, well to me that's a bit hypocritical. Well it's not like I am mad with her or anything, I think anyone has the right to speak up for what they believe in but for me when it comes to second chances, I am for it a hundred percent. Why? Because my life has been full of people who have given me second chance, and if not for their mercy, I won't be here where I am. For someone whose gone through what I have would understand that giving second chance is the most precious gift you can give to anyone. My experience and the heart I have been born with make it so easy for me to have mercy on anyone, even those who have hurt me so badly. If people that I know haven't given me a second chance, I would have long ago ended up in ditch somewhere dead. So this is how I am, my life has shaped this way, whenever I am face with a choice like this I know I will always choose to be merciful. Think me soft or what, I don't care, but I think this cold, hard, cruel world need more mercy from everyone.
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